Escaping Life !!!!

She was deeply pained by the things that were happening in her life so much that she cried for several nights together seeking many unanswered questions from God. When peace and hope sinked in, she felt like cutting off from the rest of the world and surrounding herself only with few people whom she trusted they truly love and care for her.To escape thoughts,she tried to  immerse herself completely in work in so that she doesn't realize when days pass and night ends and the next day starts.She tried to force herself to pursue one hobby after the other to keep herself engaged because a moment of silence and being alone was getting unable to bear.She was scared of herself and didn't know when these negative thoughts would  take over her conscience and her emotions would get uncontrolled.

Too much hurt,too many regrets and too many complaints she had from life

It was difficult to share when she felt that no one cared

In her loneliness it killed her deep inside

Tears flew and she hurted herself to feel a little nice

She knew escaping life is not the solution to peace and happiness but she was not able to understand the purpose of her existence and nothing that she did was able to give her the peace and happiness she was looking for. All she knew was that this is life and she has to move on along with it. She has to learn to live with her emotions whatever they make her feel good or bad.The only hope that kept her going was that this phase was temporary and it will end soon.She  felt closer to the almighty and its faith that is kept her going.

God as a phenomenan justifies for anything that goes wrong in your life.Firstly, it makes you believe that it is for the best and secondly,it takes away the blame from any person whom you consider is responsible because you start accepting it as God's will and law of nature.People say everything happens for a reason .She hoped  someday she will be able to find her own reasons

I read these few lines somewhere that inspires me..

"Not everything is meant to be forever.Forgiving someone their flaws and forgiving yourself in choosing that person is the hardest thing of all. After all learning to unfriend someone is not easy and it is so hard to let go of an individual when you feel you have invested so much of time, energy and emotion in them. But two valuable lessons to learn is :When my vision in life is to be someone who brings joy, goodness and hope into other people’s lives, when my goal is to be spiritually aware and uplifted every moment, I cannot allow myself to be hurt by the words and actions of those who do not share the values as mine."

This is true.You have to forgive and forget if you want to love, hope and trust again.